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Dear Em & Lo,
I just finished reading “How I (Still) Make My Open Relationship Work” and wanted to ask you a few questions, as I am in a very new situation. I recently have moved to Europe for 3 (ish) months, my boyfriend is in California, we have every intention of staying together, and we have been together for 4 years. We had a bump in the road a few years ago where we both sort of ‘cheated‘ (I kissed someone when I was drunk, and he had some things going on, but nothing extreme). We worked through all of it and are very happy, very open, and communicate about EVERYTHING now. I can honestly say he is the only person I want to be with, the only person I truly love. I’ve told him everything from when I had someone reappear in my life and how my feelings are about them and even when I have had fantasies of other men, and of course nothing compares to him, but I disclose it anyway. Likewise, he tells me his concerns.
So my question here is regarding while I am away. We had a very long talk through texts while I was in Spain about sex, about what would happen when we saw each other, we brought up new fantasies, and just random topics of the like. We are meeting up in Japan at the end of the 3 months of not seeing each other, and I mentioned that I wouldn’t mind if when we were there we found kinky things to do like love hotels, and it would be fine with me if he wanted to get a massage with a happy ending, lol. He in turn mentioned that he wouldn’t mind if I enjoyed dancing with other guys while on my trip, and if a make out were to occur while dancing, and it happened naturally, then he gives his “permission” and whatnot. We are both very sexual beings, and we talked about it a lot, and I felt very happy to hear him say this, but still unsure if it would actually happen.
So a few weeks have passed, and I never thought this would happen, but basically I was dancing with some friends at a music festival, and we were all having fun, and a guy who is my friend just leaned in and asked me if he could kiss me. I smiled because it seemed right, and it happened. It was friendly and fun and only a couple seconds long… so I feel like it very much abides by this “rule” we have made.
My problem here is, I haven’t told my boyfriend yet. I do not know how to tell him. I want it to be light and easy to tell, but we are far away from each other so it would have to be on Skype. He didn’t 100% say if he would want to know. But he also mentioned he could find it sexy to hear about how I turned another guy on. Should I wait to tell him in person in October when we see each other? Not telling him at all is out of the question because I know it will come out in some form eventually if I wait. I just want to do this the right way so I don’t hurt his feelings, even though he gave me his consent, it’s a new thing and I don’t want to make him sad while I’m gone and we are already missing each other a lot.
Thank you so much!
— Love Is An Open Door