How Can I Give Myself a Decent Orgasm? My Body Seems Broken!

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I’m 18, and for as long as I can remember, masturbating has never pleased me much…or at all. When I was younger and would get horn,y I’d hump stuff (lol), but after a while of doing that, I would get bored…like, there was no build up of pleasure, it didn’t feel good — but it didn’t feel bad either. It just wasn’t satisfying.

Now that I’m older, I still try to hump pillows/grind on stuff. So even though I’ve never had success with masturbating I never gave up on it. When I touch my clitoris, it doesn’t feel like much…I feel like I’m rubbing my arm or something. I make sure I have plenty of time to myself, make sure that I’m horny, wet (either after reading or watching porn), and I make sure that I WANT to do this…and trust me, I do! I set aside about 30 minutes at the minimum, and I don’t expect much…I don’t obsess over orgasming, I just clear my mind and focus on what feels good. I’ll fantasize. Problem is…nothing feels good. There’s no build up…like, I feel the sensation of me rubbing but it’s not pleasurable nor painful. I end up feeling so sad, and frustrated and feeling like my body is broken so I just stop and go do something else.

I’ve tried direct stimulation, indirect, rubbing fast, slow, soft, hard…and don’t get me started on fingering — I feel nothing. I bought a vibrator and it gives me really weak “orgasms”(they’re so weak…I’m a bit ashamed to even call them orgasms, lol). And it happens so fast, even on the lowest setting…even through my underwear, even if I stop, calm down, and go again (on a scale of 1 to 10 pleasure wise, I’ve probably only managed to get a 4…and it’s not satisfying to me at all). It’s just *boom!* instant orgasm.  It’s weak, boring, and really disappointing. I feel some contractions and a small release of energy, but it’s not full body and I feel extremely unsatisfied afterwards and still really horny. I feel like I’m losing hope.

I believe that masturbating can be empowering — to be able to take your own pleasure into your own hands and give you confidence in bed…but for me its doing the opposite. I’m really scared that if I ever get to have sex or even just fool around with a guy the same thing will happen and it’ll become a problem in our relationship. It makes me scared to even consider getting intimate with someone because my body is broken…like, I’d be willing to give, but terrified to receive because I know what will happen. I feel like I shouldn’t even bother looking to be in a relationship until I can get this down because I wouldn’t want my partner to feel like he has to give me an awesome orgasm if I can only manage to give myself weak ones…but to just feel some sort of pleasure would be nice.

I just don’t know what to do anymore and I’ve been trying for years.

— Nothing, Nada, Nil

What should or can NNN do?
Let her know in the comments below!


  1. I would experiment with more sex toys that deliver different kinds of sensations. Maybe it’s less about the clit for you and more about the G-spot. Maybe it’s about deep penetration instead of external touch. Or vice versa. Maybe you need all things going on at once! Different toys give you different things. It’s gonna cost you money, but it sounds like it’s probably worth it.

  2. While I totally understand the urge to masturbate, it isn’t for everyone and that’s okay. It seems like you’ve tried a lot of options– you might want to consider trying out different vibrators, different kinds of porn, etc. However, if you aren’t feeling fulfilled after masturbating, you really shouldn’t feel like you have to! It’s not for everyone, and that’s okay.

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