I Swung My Penis at Women, But I’m a Straight Female!

Other people’s dreams are never interesting…except when they’re about sex. Each week, our dream analyst Lauri Loewenberg tells one lucky reader what their dirty dream means. Got a dream you want Lauri to analyze? Click here to submit it (18 and older only, please). This week, a reader asks Lauri:

I dreamt I had a penis…but I’m a girl. I wasn’t wearing shorts or pants and I just was letting it dangle and wag around in girls faces because I was proud of it or something. It was really long and like an orange clay color. I just don’t get it, it was so disturbing but I also experienced pleasure in the dream, like getting off on women.

I’m straight and have never had sex with a girl. I LOVE sex with men, I want more of it. I actually have kind of an uncontrollable libido where I lust for tons of married men at church. I used to have sex with boyfriends, friends and random people since I was in my early teens. I can’t even control my lust for relatives’ spouses, teachers, church clergy, etc. I was in prison two years for a fight and missed sex A LOT. But, girls would hit on me there thinking I was into chicks. When I was a teenager, I’d dress like a slut one day and the next kinda tomboyish in Vintage. I felt like some chicks wouldn’t leave me alone, they had like crushes on me. And my boyfriend lives far so we don’t get to get it on as much as I’d like to.

What the Hell does this all mean? Am I just frustrated cuz I can’t have what I want, and like my sexual addiction is coming out in any form possible or something? Sometimes I do have like daydreams of being with girls as if I was a boy, f****** their brains out. But in real life, I’m all about having sex with older guys cuz I really get turned on by them loving me cuz I’m so much younger. Twisted I know. Figure me out.

Lauri Your behavior, and even the way you describe your behavior to me reads like a guy wrote it. And this is precisely why you dreamed you had a penis: it symbolizes your very male energy. You had it exposed and dangling for the world to see in the dream because in waking you must be very open about this behavior, or it may be something that is widely known about you.

Either way, the dream was disturbing to you because your uncontrollable libido is disturbing to you. You seem to think it’s a problem. You related the color of it to orange clay, which means that although the behavior is dirty, it can be molded. Do you want to change and mold this behavior, if not for yourself then at least for the sake of the people you can potentially harm with it?

If so, I think your dream is a call for help from your subconscious. If you think you have a sex addiction, there are plenty of therapists that specialize in sex addiction and can help you redirect your powerful energy. Please consider it, because an addiction can seriously tick others off and put you in danger. Just as the penis in your dream was a very big body part, a sexual addiction can be a very big part of a person and their life. If it is causing you to make bad decisions and is distracting you from life in general, you need to get help in reigning it in. You’ll be stronger and wiser for it! Good luck. I’m rooting for you.

Response from dreamer: Ummm ya, I see what you’re saying Laurie. Thanks for responding to me so promptly. I really appreciate that. I gotta say, it felt kinda harsh but I mean, I understand. I don’t mean to come across like some sicko lost emo soul like Bruce Jenner. Lol. No but seriously, I guess I did entertain things and grew up kinda feeding into things. So I went with the flow like Angelina Jolie’s daughter Shiloh that’s just androgynous or something. 

I see what you mean by the male and female sides. In my head though, it’s like as if I’m this soul maybe purposed to be fraternal twins but instead fused together into one sexuality always meant to be. So, I identify with both sexes closely. I don’t know if that’s what’s going on with Ellen Degenerous or had to do with Michael Jackson’s identity.

Like you said, I don’t want to be terribly controversial like them or make people uncomfortable like pervs but maybe that’s twisted too ya know? Acting like you don’t have desires when u do or may in some other life, dreamstate I had a best friend for 7 years. I think she understood me. We were really close. Idk though, sometimes I felt like she got emo, too emotional and wanted to make me jealous 24-7. I guess I kinda ignored her “needs” or whatever and kept hoeing around with hot guys and mistake ones too. Yuck. She got married to some nerdy guy recently. She invited me, I meant to go but cancelled. I’m like kinda pissed she got married first and stuff. 

Anyways, how do people grow physically, sexually, spiritually and magically if they don’t live life, make mistakes. I think a sad, unfortunate yet happy and fortunate truth is that no matter how you feel, think, believe and no matter how you act, behave, do or control things, you’re making someone mad, ticked, pissed or happy, turned on, pleasured,  relieved or harmed and exploited whether it’s yourself or others. Plus, several of those experiences are capable of occurring simultaneously.

But ya I might be a nympho. Idk. Maybe I do. A, the old friend used to think so but I never even got on her like that. People are complicated I guess. Last night I had a dream, after I emailed you all this circus shit, seeing myself from someone else’s view as how I do see myself when I look out from the outside. I was in the desert, which I love, shooting steel machine arrows at God in the sky who was a baby boy. I felt bad. And then I woke up thinking about making love with my boyfriend. And then crushing on my Professor. As if I had never dreamed that dream. I got ready, listening to Depeche Mode, put my earrings on, brushed my long thick black hair, glossed my lips and dressed all in burgundy. Earth is weird.

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